Thanking God!

I have realized
the meaning of life
and I no more
wish to analyze!

My emotions
unbound and liberated!
No more bewildered
am exhilarated!

Thankful to God
for small blessings in life..
In small gains of each day..
Wishful to survive!

I thank God
For all I have!


Copyright (c) Archana Bora

Remnants!

Indulgent my heart,
refuses to be apart!

Emotions deny
to give way,
I hold you close to heart
though you moved away!


Am a lost mind
with sad eyes
as that's what is left behind
after we bid
the final good byes...!

Copyright (c) Archana Bora

The split!

You walked off
never to be back
Leaving me in shock
causing a setback!

I know am graceless,

with age have lost appeal
I've lost the lustre
and the feel!

I suppose it wasn't
love anyday,
cause love is a treasure
forever to stay!

Can't stop these tears
nor your steps
My mind in commotion
as it frets!

My voice I realise
gives way..
Not a word I utter
there is nothing to say!

Lost and lonely
I stand now
Wish I could
get you back somehow!

Copyright (c) Archana Bora

Deserted!

As I turn back I realise
you are no longer mine!
Forever away,never to be close
you are gone with time!

My mind wanders
in the jungle of thoughts
where the debris
of your memories rots!

Was moving towards you
a big mistake...?
What made you my goal
with all at stake?

I realise what a fool
I have been
to lose myself
to someone so mean!

Lost all in love
now I cry in pain!
Just hope it doesn't
drive me insane!

Copyright (c) Archana Bora

Meeting you again!

For you
my arms spread
I wait for you
all dressed in Red!

The color you love
to see me wearing
and my heart beats
with excitement within!

To feel you close
I have craved for long
Life without you
was a sad song!

In your embrace,
I feel eternal bliss,
longingly we share
a desperate kiss..

You are to me
the fresh breeze
I hug you close
and wish time
could freeze!



Copyright (c) Archana Bora

Missing You!

Remember the time...
you held me close
and with an infectious kiss
you barged through
my heart's sealed doors!

Took my
my heart..!
You became my
inseparable part..!

Memories linger
of your touch
I wish I could confess
I miss you so much!


Copyright (c) Archana Bora

Confessions of my heart!

Just wondering
aimlessly in vain
knowing not how to
absorb this pain!

Trying to keep
my mind confined
within the bounds
undefined!

The emotions for you
in my heart, hidden
and my desires
sinful and forbidden!

My skin aching
again for a caress
and my heart
trying to find
a way to confess!

I long to touch you
the way I did before
to lose myself
and think no more!

Nothing matters
beyond you now
I want you close
anyway, anyhow!

Its impossible for me
to escape you
for I love you
with a heart so true!

I love you!

Copyright (c) Archana Bora

Falling in love with you!

Love they said
is fire!
I refused
and moved on!

We met..
so did our eyes…
leaving a spark
behind!

Now I stand
in a situation dire…
No more a spark
I’m in a bonfire!

Ablaze in ardor
for you so true!
Within me an eternal urge
for you!

I realize ..
I have fallen
in love with you!

Copyright (c) Archana Bora

My dream!

Beyond time and age
a small dream,
I wanted to live
only with you!

My dream
drowned and forgotten
and remains
as my lost past!

A part of me
endlessly spinning yarn
with a faint hope
no matter what be!

Maybe my dream
survives!


Copyright (c) Archana Bora

Me & My destiny!

An endless search
for you
in these
lifeless lines
defining destiny!

In my small palm
in these lines
hides somewhere
the future
of you and me!

I frantically search
you aren't there
and my palm
closes to a fist
just to force
myself on destiny!

In an attempt
to fulfill
my unfulfilled dream
I leave scars
on my palms!

My destiny distorts!

Copyright (c) Archana Bora

Moving on!

Lost…I am
still stuck to past!
wondering till when..
these feelings will last!

Grief-stricken and
morose my heart
attempting in vain
to forget you!

I move on after
my heartbreak!

Copyright (c) Archana Bora

Without You!

Life goes on
but stays in heart
lingering memories
of the moments
of eternal bliss!

Days were bright
and nights cozy
with you
around me!

Life was colorful
and each day
a dream, that
I longed to live!

Now as you are gone,
I stand alone
wondering..
how do I survive!

Marooned I stand
amidst the waves
searching for you,
my strength!

You are gone
and so is my hope
I wish to live
no more!!

Copyright (c) Archana Bora

I wish I could.. turn back time

I wish I could..

Erase form my mind
each memory of you..
and be the ‘Me”
before I met you!

Reverse our meeting
and the phone call,
that got us together,
to be back as strangers!

I long now, to even
abolish the moments
when our eyes met,
heartbeats skipped
and I fell in love with you!

I wish I could erase
every happening
as now I hate
to pine..
Spending hours
I ponder and wonder
If I could
turn back time!

Copyright (c) Archana Bora

Commitment

A difficult confession,
of the emotions
that overflow..
regardless
time and age!

I call it..
expression
of true love!



Copyright (c) Archana Bora

Love

Love..

A feeling
deep within
the heart..
a pain every time
when it comes
to part!

Easy expression,
but so difficult
to put across!


Copyright (c) Archana Bora

Understanding Love

They say
love is..
Intensity of passions
revelation of
deep emotions!

I fell in love,
but
why my comprehension
is so vague?

After I tasted love
an emptiness
fills my heart!
The pain feels close,
it refuses to part!

Nothing remains
now within..
except a lingering pain
that you left
behind!

Still a question,
on my mind..
Is it true
that love is eternal
and nothing is
of its kind!!
I wonder
what love is
as my thoughts rebound
in and out
of love!!

Awaiting,
my heavy heart,
winds of change..
some honest confessions
to pacify my
betrayed faith and emotions!

Copyright (c) Archana Bora

Emotions

In my heart
all emotions
set free!
My mind
wanders..
sometimes
in sadness
and sometimes
in glee!

At times
a touch of pain
and sometimes
a tinge of pleasure!

Sometimes
a wry sigh
and sometimes
my spirit high!

Different emotions
packed within
just revealed
with time!!

Copyright (c) Archana Bora

Ode to You (Edited Version)

I know my dreams
with you
head nowhere.

Despite the fact
that you deny
my existence
in your life!

Refuse me support
and never bother
how I survive!

I hold on to
my blind faith
on 'unknown' you!
I refuse
to let go.

I admit
I am
blindly in
love with u!


Copyright (c) Archana Bora

Ode to You

I know my dreams
with you
head nowhere.

Still..
I hold on to
my blind faith
on 'unknown' you!

Despite the fact
that you deny
my existence
in your life!
Refuse me support
and don’t bother
how I survive!

I refuse
to let go!

My eyes blinded,
faith strong..
and I move on
ignoring the stumbles
and the ugly sores
on my heart!

I admit
I am
blindly in
love with u..

Copyright (c) Archana Bora

The void..

Burnt out ..
My mind,
my soul!

Remains now
the debris
of your memories
and my heart
with a tear!

No way
now…
it can heal..!

Nothing
will never fill
the void
you left behind!

Copyright (C) Archana Bora

Between you and him!

I knew
deep in my heart
I wasn’t sure
of this part!

In dilemma

I try
to be strong!
I’ve to decide
as I am stuck
between
him and you!

Not that you
were wrong,
just the bond
was never
so strong!

My heart
now denies
your possession
and my eyes
refuse a smile…

I believe we’ve
drifted a long mile!
The bond
of love has
broken off!

Nomore difficult
my heart moves
to the new abode
it found!



Copyright © Archana Bora

The unrest within me!

Breathes within
a feeling
of apprehension!

Why?

I ask myself!!

Is it the unseen?
or then the past
that I’ve left
behind?

What worries me
I wonder
and still
fail to get
an answer!

I hang on
in anticipation
someday
this feeling
dies off!

Copyright (C) Archana Bora

Heartbreak

It hurts...
it recurred..

Took life in my stride
but I stumbled again!
In my search for love
I ended in pain!

Trapped I am
and that’s what I feel!

Lost my heart
to your intoxicating smile..
and myself
to your inviting arms

I realize I committed
a mistake again..!

You are gone
with the wind
with its flow..
and I stand lost
nowhere to go!

Stuck to the past
still stuck to you..
I wonder if
you were ever true!

Copyright (C) Archana Bora

Me.. A dead man!

My beliefs drowned
in the bottomless sea
of betrayal!

My virtues and me
live together
in a grave
where we were
buried alive!

Not once
not twice
I’ve died
a million times.

A body I carry
a burden to bear
the soul plundered
unheard…
the beauty decayed
within unseen!

Still I walk
I’ve to move on
a dead man walking
that’s what I am.

Copyright © Archana Bora

The never ending Search

A fake heart
I meet
every time!

It sticks around
Until me
and my flesh
feels fresh!

Love I believe
stands now
as a mockery!

Never ending
the search
for a honest soul
who belongs
just to me!

Copyright © Archana Bora

Finding true love!

Every one,
I meet
has
a fake heart.

Sticking around
just until
me and my flesh
feels fresh!

So crude
yet so true
finding
a soul mate
is a difficult
thing to do!

Love I believe
stands now
as a mockery!

Never ending
the search
for a honest soul
who belongs
just to me!

Copyright © Archana Bora

The death bed

On my death bed
I lay with
dreams gray!

Revived
my soul
as I watch
you ..
my child!

I relive
the lost
moments..…
the past
as I see
you and the
immature pair
of wide eyes!


Copyright (C) Archana Bora

Life

You and me..
two ends of life..!

Me on my deathbed
knocking at heaven
and you
just born
and set for
the mortal strife!

Amazed I am
at the irony of life..

Such an odd junction
for us to meet..



Copyright (C) Archana Bora

Watching you!

On your face
as the sunshine falls
I see an
eternal glow!

I sit beside
as you slowly breathe!

Your eyes closed
as you lie in peace
and as you dream
your lips
curve to a smile!

I watch as you
shudder with each caress
You look like
silk wrapped
in lace..

You lie
as perfect as a
piece of craft
and with a body like
a sculptor’s dream!
Each part is perfection
and each move
a lovely expression!

I get mischievous
as I gaze at you!

I bend and touch
your forehead
with a soft kiss
and feel a wry smile
escape my lips!

I just lived
a moment
of sheer bliss!


Copyright (C) Archana Bora

Reminiscences

Time goes on
stops for none,
and everyone
is a part
of the run!

Grey hair
wrinkled skin
I am no more
of what I had been!

As I fumble
in the
cluttered drawer
I catch
a glimpse of
something precious!

Beaming faces
ambitions ahead
full of zeal
to win the future!

I realize
I captured bliss
in this tiny
photograph!

Faded memories
appear vivid
lost in past
but treasured
in my heart!

My nostalgic mind
wanders down
the memory lane…
My heart aches
to live
the past again!

Copyright (C) Archana Bora

Monotonous days!

Yet another day…

I struggle
to be awake
with coffee,
exercise
and breakfast!

I start
my routine,
struggle,
with
the traffic
and office punches
and still sit
there for hours,
until I get tired!

I return
to my
empty house!

Bland dinner
and
some wine
tastelessly
I swallow!

The laptop,
a few
useless calls
and the TV loud
accompany me,
as I kill time
and try to
sleep!

After
the weird
and
futile dreams
of the fruitless
long night..

I wake up to
yet another
monotonous dawn!

Copyright (C) Archana Bora

Search for honesty

I feel lost
as I search
for honesty
in vain.

Impossible
it is to reach
the mind
and visualize
who’s the one
inside
this hard coat
of ambiguity!

Poker-faced people
walk around me!

Multiple faces
overlapping
a single face!

I lie torn
between
right and wrong,
good and evil
and
the genuine and fake!

Confused
I stand
helpless
in this
dangerous trap!

Copyright(C) Archana Bora

Finding love with you!

I wake up in your arms,
Still lingering
reminiscences of
the wild and
passionate yester night!

My desires revive
as I read
your masculinity!
My body aches
and I tremble
as I remember the
moments dipped
in pleasure!

My hair spread
on your chest,
and my head resting
next to your heart!
Maybe with
an urge again
for the heartbeats
to synchronize!

A sinful
yet a pleasurable night
when all was wrong
and nothing right!
No more in a fix
this time for sure
I have found love
honest and pure!

I look at you
and my lips curve
to a smile!


Copyright (C) Archana Bora

Love at first sight

A twist in
my droning life..
as I stand in
the crossroad!

Trying feebly
to abstain
from
conceding to
my emotions!

My heart opens
the sealed doors
as it makes
strange bonds
with you
stranger!

Copyright (C) Archana Bora

A moment!

My heart flutters
as you play
with the words
that we both know
are made for hurt

You deliver your lines
with studied ease
and walk away
the past
dust off your sleeves

why is it
that my heart
aches and thumps
when its supposed
to be broken?

(c) Archana Bora

My evenings with Scotch

Every evening
I calm
the unrest
in my soul!

Addicted to
tempting,
exhilarating
irresistible.. you.!

I go to you!

Smoothly
you yield
to the flow
of my wishes!

Your effect
profound
infuse
gradually
with each sip!

Soothes
my heart
as I devour
each bit
of you!

I feel
we are
companions
perhaps
till death
as we sit
together
enjoying
the solace!



Copyright (C) Archana Bora

The Sin

Can't escape
your intoxicating smile
and gripping gaze
that holds me.

I stand trapped
in a maze
of fatal attraction.

My dormant desires
buried unknown
sizzles
as I instinctively
take on!!

Our lips meet,
and we share a kiss,
igniting my emotions,
and setting my passion free!

Your electric touch
sets me ablaze,
and I sizzle
in the sheets!

It’s a sin
I realize!
But..
I give in to you,
breaking moral bonds…
I make love
and set myself free!


Copyright (C) Archana Bora

Rejection

Muffled voice
alien eyes..
nothing you said
but sigh!

You move
your hands
off mine,
and your eyes
away from me.

My heart flutters
as you play
with the words
that I know
would hurt!

You find words
put across
and walk off
silently.

Leaving me
with myself
and my
broken heart!


Copyright (C) Archana Bora

The smoker's passion!

Desperately
I hunt for you,
and after long
my search ends!

I find you!

I hold you,
ignite you
and
as u burn
I relish!
So exhilarating
you are,
I lose myself
to you!

My mind
finds peace
after the
intoxication!

I rest
satisfied,
enjoying the taste
you left behind!


Copyright (C) Archana Bora

You (Unedited)

In an untouched
corner of heart,
I had buried you
long back.

Why do they
feel dear…
the debris of
reminiscences
that lie
decayed!

Searching you
still
in my dreams,
maybe
I find you!

Copyright (C) Archana Bora

You

I had buried you
long back
in an untouched
corner of heart.

The debris of
reminiscences
lie decayed…
but cherished!

Searching you
in my dreams still,
maybe I find you
Someday!

Copyright (C) Archana Bora

an unrequited query (Edited version By Mr. Avi)

Incessant desires,
numerous attempts….
just to beat
the unconquerable...

Destiny dominant
and me, frail
Every endeavour
a failure?

Yet I move, like
the enraged waves
hit destiny’s harsh crags
just to fall back again...

Each endeavour crushed
while dreams expire...
Just to leave ugly scars
on my soul...my mind

Every time, in front of life
I stand with
An unrequited query
then return back to strife...


Copyright (C) Archana Bora

Unrequited query

Incessant desires,
numerous attempts….
just to beat
the unconquerable!

Every endeavor
a failure,
destiny influential,
and me, frail!

I move like
the enraged waves,
hit destiny’s tough crag,
just to fall back again!

Each endeavor shattered,
and dreams expire!
Just to leave ugly scars,
on my mind and soul!

Every time…
In front of God,
I stand with
an unrequited query!

Copyright (C) Archana Bora

Aftermath

You spoke
me too,
with no concern
of sentiments..!

You were harsh
me too,
thinking not
of consequences!

You broke my heart
and I broke yours,
leaving a void,
so hard to fill!

You regret
and so do I,
but we have reached
so far!

So close at heart,
yet so far …
we stand at
the point of no return!

Copyright (C) Archana Bora

Mesmerising you!

So alluring,
magnetic and
strong.....
You seem!

Though reluctant
I fail
to conceal
the conflicting thoughts
within!

I await
your touch
in anticipation,
and for my naïve dreams
to materialize!

Creep within me
a million thoughts,
and I ache to be close!

Unable to resist,
I give in to you!


Copyright (C) Archana Bora

An ode to my dreams

In anguish…
My heart complains
as I fail to find a way out!
Caught in the crossfire of life,
I wonder what do I do now!

Do I hang on to the debris,
of my dead emotions and wishes?
Or I learn to dream anew,
create newer and fresher wishes!

Should I mould myself,
to the needs and wants
of the world?
Or tread alone on these serene
and bloody cold roads, I constructed,
leading always to a dead end!

I am tired of ..
seeing my dreams die,
before they had a chance to
materialize!

Still... I gather myself,
turn around and walk back...
hopelessly, into the lanes
that may never lead to my dreams!

Never know, I find my lost faith in myself
wandering in these cold dark lanes....


Copyright © Archana Bora

illtija

Yuu.N muskurake ab parda na daal,
yeh na soch tera gham mujhe dikhta nahi.N.
Tujhse vaakif huu.N main is k.adar,
tera dard mujhse ab chipta nahin!

Ik nazar teru kah jaye,
tere dil ki har ek ankahi!

Dil main pal pal
sulag raha hai jo tere,
Ashk bankar bah jaane de usse,
kuch nahi bas dard hai yeh!


Copyright (C) Archana Bora

Me

Torn between
two ends
in parts
innumerable!

In desperation
I try to
break free!

Somewhere
deep inside of me,
I am
tired of
these artificial ties!

Once in a lifetime
a bond is created
with someone !

Once broken,
it lies in shreads
and so is my life,
devoid of positivity!

I stand
stranded
in the
turbulent, sea of life,
waiting if
the impossible
happens again!

(c) Archana Bora

Nostalgia

To live my dreams
I left home,
my people,
my real "Me"
God created!

Nostalgic
my mind,
craves now
to be back..
where I belong!

My perturbed mind
feels alien
and my soul
reluctant!!

My mind
leaves all behind
and walks back..
to the land
of my dreams,
'My motherland'!
To the house,
I call 'My Home'...
just to be amidst
the people I call
'my family'!

Copyright (C) Archana Bora

My thoughts for you!!

Feel drawn
to you,
I can't escape!
So magnetic,
and enigmatic,
you seem..!

You feel
like the
dark waters,
running deep
with underlying
torrent!
You draw
me close!

Feebly
as I try
to escape,
I feel tied
to you
with the
invisible strings
of intense passion!

Your touch
ignite
my desires!
Your feel
ecstatic,
I can’t resist!

I melt
like wax,
in your
warm embrace!

Copyright (C) Archana Bora

Freedom

I love to see,
my world
upside down!

I feel like a bird!
Walking on clouds,
I relish the infinite skies,
with no bounds!


I taste freedom!

Copyright (C) Archana Bora

The leaves of fall

So blue,
my broken heart,
and
fall is here!

I walk down
the pavement,
with reminiscences
of you!

In these
colorful leaves
on the sidewalk,
I try to
find
the colours,
to paint
my life again!

Copyright (C) Archana Bora

The Unwinding!

Thoughts
in my mind
entangled,
I am lost
in introspection!

Barefoot,
I walk
on the beach!

The waves
kiss my feet,
tenderly
with every splash!

I realize,
the worries
are lost…
as I turn back
and
search for
my vanished footsteps
on the beach!

I realise the
irony in life..
Nothing stays forever!

I feel revived
and a
wry smile escapes,
unnoticed,
from the corner
of my mouth!


In isolation,
I unwind!

Copyright (C) Archana Bora

To you

Wading through
the hard waves,
in desperation
to reach you!
Waves
of turbulence
trying hard,
to daunt me!

Still..
I move on,
I reach,
I get closer to you!

Copyright (C) Archana Bora

The bud's song!

Fresh
naive,
intact,
I am!

Its morning,
dews evaporate
and
I blossom!

I ballet
with the sunshine,
to the tune
of the zephyr!


Copyright (C) Archana Bora

ज़िंदगी

तुम थे पर
अब नही हो !

दिल पर लिखा मैंने
नाम तुम्हारा,
जो गुम गया
वक्त की लहरों में !
अब ढूँढती हूँ तुम्हे,
इन खाली हाथों की
लकीरों मैं!

मेरी ज़िंदगी
जैसे समुंदर किनारे
की रेत हो !
कुछ लिक्ति हूँ पर ॥
कुछ हi पलों में
मिट जाता है
नाम -ओ -निशाँ !


Copyright (C) Archana Bora

Ek pal

Ek baar to aa jao,
ki tumko inn baaho.N
main bhar luu.N!
Dil ko yakeen ho,
jo thaa kabhi hamare beech,
voh ehsaas pyaar hi tha!
Kyonki
pataa nahi,
agar tum kabhi samjhe,
Jo kuch aankhon se
bayaa.N kiya tha maine!

Sochti huu.N,
kaise jeeyu.N main,
tumhare bina.
Bas ek pal chahiye ab,
jab tumhare saath
thoda jee luu.N main!

Copyright (C) Archana Bora

The Lighthouse...

I stand
steady,
towering,
supreme and
triumphant!

Neighboring
the quiet sea
and beside the
strong waves
with intense vigour!

With an
ache within,
to face the
infinite storms!

Though
unaccompanied,
secluded and
all by myself,
I stand firm
on the ground!

(C) Archana Bora

Solitude

Emotions like
the wild sea
with
desperate waves
overcome me!

I try to fight the tears!

Passion
set free
but,
the silent screams
of my heart
left unheard
still!

On the beach,
in solitude,
my heart moans…!

Life is so blue,
Without you!

(C) Archana Bora

The Fake Commitment

Dreams turned to ashes and washed off with endless tears. . .
Eyes are searching for light, waiting for the cloud to clear.
Life has shown harsh days, life has been tough!
Feet are full of sores, treading on the path so rough.
My life leading to nowhere and my eyes has nothing to see.
My soul captured in a maze, I can't get free.
The maze of love, the mirage of affection. . .
I have to admit you have acted to perfection.
I loved a heartless man with a stone like soul. . .
Who played a game so foul!
I know the cloud can never clear,
And my whole life I have a pain to bear. . .
Deep in my heart away from all. . .
I never grew in love, what I did was fall!


Archana Bora

Copyright ©2005 Archana Bora

The New Horizon

I feel the intense magnetism above me,
of the sky..and long to be drawn to freedom..
so that I be above the snow-caps
and touch the stars, moons and sun.
I want to be the reckless wind that blow throughout
and shake the old, mighty trees,
and like the giant whirlpools.....
invade the vast,deep, silent seas.
I dream of freedom for one and all
from worldly ties of the body and the soul,
so that each heart thinks constructive,and
truth, love and peace be their ultimate goal.
I hope my dreams are ..strong as iron chunks
and it brightens the stormy dark night like the thunder blaze...
and I could see all dreams materialise
as time gradually unfolds its crystal maze!
Then all faces young and old in this world,
look contended, in peace and glowing like the sun,
when the dawn of the day of my executed dreams
breaks and spreads light on the New Horizon.

©2005 Archana Bora

Thoughts

Emotions unreasonable and desires waste!
My life is so bitter to taste!
I think where my dreams have disappeared!
And to what point I have steered . . .!
To an island alone and I stand marooned!
To such awful notes I have my life tuned!
Not poetry and not a bit of beauty...!
All that exists in my life is ambiguity!
I show what I am not, hiding the real me,
And feel as sick as can be.
Thinking what I am is an imposter within...!
With a mask to cover what all I have been.
All these years in the past,
I've gained good impressions to last!
Now on my soul I carry a burden hard to bear!
I need a confidant who can hear!
What I've been through all these days,
Why my heart bleeds and what it says!
My destiny refuses me a moment of bliss
and never is granted my any wish!!


Archana Bora

Copyright ©2005 Archana Bora

Zombie

The pain has reached its threshold,
Everything my heart can withhold!
From betrayal to backstabbing, no matter how cold . . .
Be an emotional setback or a tragic turmoil in heart!
Nothing can anymore break my heart apart.
My heart has been ground to pieces infinite,
And my mind is now as strong as granite.
Out of the molten material as the rock is born . . .
So is my mind now, lifeless and strong!
I have no hopes, no dreams, no expectations or aim.
No more of imagination and nothing puts me to shame.
I have become a zombie, the need of the present!
With neither needs nor demands and nothing to resent.
Now I call myself a tough man,
With a heart harder than the stones.
Just a lifeless creature I am, made up of skin and bones.

Archana Bora

Copyright ©2005 Archana Bora

The Prostitute

Dreams turned to nothing and desires burnt out,
My heart stabbed, bleeding but am unable to shout.
My tears falling endlessly and all around is dark,
Why does my body look beaten with marks?
I knew life would be this and I'll face such a day!
Why did I ever become a prostitute, a lay!
Pleasure for all but nothing for me,
Everyone walks off, with no one to turn back and see.
What I undergo after people leave,
I just cry in self pity and grieve..
For my plundered modesty every now and then
I have lost count, where and when. . .
It feels terrible to be considered with no character!
I am so because money is a factor.
Even I dreamt of a life with happiness and respect!
Compromise is the only thing I can expect. . ..

I hope next life will be a better one.

Archana Bora

Copyright ©2005 Archana Bora

I rise... From ashes to fire again …

Wondering why I can't stand...
Up on my feet again...
So strong I am otherwise...
Today I fall with the rain!
Why my morals need a boost...
Why do I feel so weak...?
Why no strength to fight back...
And no strength to speak...!
The fact that I'm alone...
Is haunting me to death!
I donot know how to pacify
My destiny’s wrath!!

I realize I have to stand...
On my feet again!
It doesn't matter how I ever...
Withstand the pain!
From the ash I have to rise...
To be the fire again!
No more looking back at past...
Not thinking of getting slain!

Life is one... I have to move on...
And every time I have to stand strong!!

I keep my faith!

(C) Archana Bora

Desperation

I see you
and my mind
flies off
to fantasy land…
Can’t help
staring at
you today,
helplessly I stand!

My emotions
overcome my poise;
I lose my self-control…

I wonder
how long can I
keep myself n hold!

Trying to be away
when I ache to be close…
Though I try to
hide my urge,
I realize it shows
in my eyes
and my heart
slipping its beat…

Ask my heart,
it knows,
you are a sizzling treat!!
A treat for
my hungry desires
that make the passion rise…
I know
in your arms
my fate lies!
I crave to be
very close to you…
so that even air
can’t breathe through!

I am desperate for you!

(C) Archana Bora

Bridge

An attempt to bridge the gap after a long time again,
Between you and me… forgetting the pain!
The pain you caused to me long back...
And left me alone causing a huge setback..!
My emotions lie dead; I need to revive again,
Between you and me forgetting the pain!
How do I forget the terrible heartbreak…?
How can you assure now there will be no heartache?
How do I convince myself... this time its there to stay?
How do I be firm that time you will not go astray?
The deep roots of trust shattered in the past…
How do I revive it now as I still doubt if it can last!!
How can I ask the waves of time to return…!
How do I accept you though for you I yearn!!
So many questions in mind, but answers for none…
No desire left to bridge the gap and settle again as one!!

Copyright © Archana Bora

Song of my heart

My mind flies, like the bird..
My heart flutters like its wings.
After looking at you today,
My heart could not resist, but sing!!
Out of joy, in expectation,
My eyes looked out on you.
Hoping you would accept,
My love so true...
You were the awaited freshness,
As fresh as the summer breeze!
And I moved in rhythm with the wind..
Danced along your tune, like the trees...
Without you I felt I am nothing..
I wanted the heat of love from you..
to live in this world--
I accept with a heart true!

I love you with all my heart!

Copyright © Archana Bora

A Wish

Fooled my heart,
my honesty and me..
I wish you get the same
what you have given me!
You played with my soul;
you will get it back…
I hope the fruits of your deeds
are packed for you in stack…
I loved you, and
will always love you …
Just hope you face
the heartbreak faced by my heart so true..
Just wish in exchange
of each dream you’ve burnt off…
And the way heartlessly you walked off…
May God give you an equal setback somehow …someday!


Copyright © Archana Bora

Maybe

Maybe it was never what it seemed to be…
Maybe you were not the one for me!
Maybe our meeting was just an accident…
And the romance; a co incidence!
Maybe the love I felt was far too less
Maybe the care lacked on my part!
Maybe God brought us together…
Just to break my heart!
Maybe my destiny wasn’t supportive enough!
Maybe you weren’t prepared for such times so tough!
Maybe you weren’t the king to be close…
Maybe I didn’t realize what I chose!
Maybe the faith I had was too much.
Maybe it was wrong to think as such!
Maybe the expectations I set too high.
Maybe that’s why you left me with a lie.
Maybe life no more wants me to smile.
Maybe alone I have to tread each mile.
Maybe trust means nothing anymore anything any day…
Maybe I’ll stay in this way!
Maybe God forgot to create my soul mate…
Maybe he forgot to put happiness in my fate!
Maybe he forgot I also need a smile…
Maybe it never occurred to him for a while!
“Maybe” is the word all I have in life…
With “maybe” I will have to survive!

Copyright © Archana Bora

Armaan

Aaj armaanoN ki baraat nikli!
Main dulhan bani..
Aankhon mein shabnam..
Aur hontoN par thahri hasi.!.

Main rukti rahi..
Tum aaoge..!
Tum nahi aaye.. chale gaye..!
Aur chhod gaye yaadein apni..
..Jo ab roz mujhe ..
Ashkon main doobi dulhan banaye!
Meri aankhon main shabnam..
Aur hontoN par thahri hasi..
Ab bhi is intezaar main..
.. kabhi to tum aaoge!


Copyright © Archana Bora

Jigsaw

Still wondering what to do...
Still wondering where these pieces belong...
It is very difficult to materialize the dreams...
And understand what the heart longs!

Still trying hard with the
pieces of my life scattered around!
No clue to the happenings...
No voice no sound!

My mind still trying
to solve the puzzle..
My life lying in front of me..
like the pieces of a Jigsaw puzzle...

(c) Archana Bora

Raindrops..

My heart cries in ecstasy...
in pain...
As I see the raindrops...
Outside ... On my window pane...
Memories cloud my heart...
get me to the nostalgic lanes..
Raindrops as they pour..
On the dark lane..
You are in my mind..
I wish you were around ..
the desires lingering still...
to you I feel love bound..
Deep within somewhere ..
you still touch me deep !
I know you are in my heart..
your memories my tresure to keep!
Admist the thoughts as I see...
out the window again!!
I see you walking towards me..
calling me in the rain!


I run to you in the rain..
and surrender in your arms!!

Copyright (C) Archana Bora

The Wait…

I walk..
still alone..
I refuse to stop.
My mind wanders
as I feel the rain..
..its each drop.

Reminding me
of the last drizzle,
I shared with you.
Reminiscences and me
still here,
waiting for you.

Awaiting
the touch,
I still yearn for.
Refusing to part
with moments,
spent with you before.

Wait seems endless
like my love for you!

(c) Archana Bora

The stranger’s smile

Stranger!
You make me..
As helpless as can be!
And I return,
a warm smile..
like the one for me!

An unknown face..
but ..
the beaming smile!
Takes my breath ..
Unknowingly,
for a while!

So inviting ..
that it is ..
so hard to resist!
Walk ahead..
don't stop..
my heart insists.


Though strangers..
you feel ...
remote no more to me!
I realise ..
in your smile...
friendship I see!

I walk to you!

(c) Archana Bora

From Water… Transformation to ice

Water..
so flexible,
transparent,
and vulnerable
to deceit!

I had to..
change form..
.. to be hard..
less flexible!
I considered
and changed
my form
to ice.

Now...
my mind
is white,
translucent,
and cold.
Mysteriously
emotionless
it is today!

So hard,
resolute,
and powerful.

I move away.
I move on
as I want,
to be gone!

I realize,
it’s easy
to melt off...
.. to give up!
But then..
hard ice
can break,
can cut..

I decided
to stay as ice!!

(c) Archana Bora

Orphan

I stand
ignored,
unwanted,
dirty and
unnoticed!

I got birth
stayed unknown,
no celebrations,
none to own!

Not of concern,
My existence,
just the soul
my sole inheritance!

An Orphan
that's what I am!

(c) Archana Bora

Dilemma

Dazed..
confused..
still Wondering..
what way to take..!

Life is..
..profusion..
what do I ..
opt for..?

Tricky..
it's each step..
and I know..
it’ll lead to..
..different routes..
.. altogether!

In dilemma ..
Endlessly weighing..
...pros and cons..
and oscillating!

Realizing ..
.understanding..
the need for ..
..unambiguous..
..situations in life!

(c) Archana Bora

Life

A promenade
to walk on
all by myself,
alone!

Maybe
I would reach
to where
I belong!

I dream
to reach
beyond the
horizon!

Hoping that
at the end
of the darkness
I would see light!

I walk on
without
a thought of
what lies ahead!

Confident
with an aim
To conquer
my dreams!

(c) Archana Bora

Fear

Unknown,
unseen,
a dungeon
Just heard of!

What is it?
No one knows
but no one
wants to face!

A taste
No one longs for
An experience
Unwanted!
An emotion
vague
undesired
and waste!

Serves no good
does no bad
Just stops growth
retards one’s steps!

The one to
tread against it!
Makes it to top
takes a lead!
Has no face
neither eyes nor ear!
Just a factor
It’s called “fear”.

(c) Archana Bora

Still cherish..

I Still
remember
your eyes
filled
with love..

when

I turned back
stood startled
to see you
standing behind..
The chemistry
between us
the same!
The closeness
and
emotions
played salsa.
Got wilder
with passion
eager for
your touch.

You came closer
than ever before.
And I
Surrendered
to my
temptation..
finding a home
in your embrace!

I cherish
the moments
I spent
with you!

The essence
lingering still…
and pulling me back
to the
lanes
of nostalgia!!

(c) Archana Bora

Moments with God!

Quiet
I am today..
But inside me
there is
a turmoil..

Like
angry waves
my emotions
raving within!

I step in,
I know
Its your abode
however
I just
walk in!

I stoop
touch
your feet!
Sit beside
and
pour out
all unsaid!
My tears
follow ..
then
subside
as my heart
now
feels like
a calm sea..

Waves
in heart
persist
but smoother..
and emotions
au fait,
Bound in faith
I walk out
with
a gratified heart..!

(c) Archana Bora

Encounter..

Some call it love..
some fantasy..
and some..
The Roadway to Ecstasy!
I was awestruck ..
on my encounter..
I lost my heart..
what could be better!!
I called it faith..
felt in my heart..
I knew I lost..
The game at its start!
As I was in peace & solace..
in this relationship..
I called it "love"..
sweet as Sugar drip!!
I lost my way in love...
& I didn't want a way out..
But one blow of betrayal ..
and a total black-out!!
I woke up in pain..
refusing to leave me ever..
But Memories aren't like people..
they dwell in heart forever!
I crashed in life.. as...
Love walked out on me...
My heart sobbing..
was all that I could see!!
I called it destiny..
I thought of my cursed fate..
Ohh God .. I stood awestuck again..
By an encounter on next date..!!

Destiny is full of surprises!!

(c) Archana Bora

Destiny

Thinking
and trying
to visualize
and understand
the life ahead!

Rolled within
a small fist
or then
written on
the forehead..
they say!

On the books
written
by people
or then..
laid
on cards
to read the same.

Destiny!
A mystery
I wonder
how so
it is simple
to read !

(c) Archana Bora

A Loner's Poem

Relationships,
bonds,
sentiments,
I understand none!
Unseen,
unknown,
I haven't met
either one!

I thought
I understand
in depth..
what and how
they are!
Alas!
I realise
I don't know
even one!

No bonds ever,
no relationships
or any attachment
worth a say!

A loner
here I stand
alone..
All by myself today!

(c) Archana Bora

Karma

‘Karma’
They say..
Work
expect nothing
do good
think radical!

Thinking..
I am here
for what!

Reasons
don’t seem
enough
convincing..

I act
with
prudence!
An effort
to reach
the unreachable..
to acquire
the invincible!

(c) Archana Bora

Stranger

He passed me
and
swung my heart
into rapid beats.

I couldn't help
the urge
of my craving soul
to feel
the quintessence
of his masculinity.

As he rushed
in the
moving traffic..
and left me
with a
realization..
the need for
his touch!!

Still wondering
how to
describe the
emotions
he left behind
unknowingly!

(c) Archana Bora

Unspoken Desires...

A need
for closeness,
and affection
and commitment
and love
Sweet nothings,
tender emotions!

So many
shortcomings
and
no fulfillment
because
you fail to
understand
what my
desires are!

So many needs
but no words
to put it
across
to you
any day!

So,
Silently I await
a day
when you
understand
all my
unspoken desires!

(c) Archana Bora

Temptations

A huge crush
and intense desires
and I give in
to my temptations!

I woke up
early morning,
with memories
lingering..
..of your caress
and touch
and the smell
of your skin!

I accept
its impure,
it’s a sin
But,
resisting you..
so hard
it has been!

I cherish the
lingering moments still!!

(c) Archana Bora

Hopelessness

Had a thought
dreams can come true..
But now feel
I need to rethink..
Re-evaluate
each step
I took and
plan to take!

Endless attempts
innumerable failures
Still trying..
against all odds!
Now,
Just awaiting
a day when
all my hopes
evaporate
and die!

(c) Archana Bora

A thought about life…

They say,

Live life
with an urge
strong
to achieve!

I have it
in my mind
in my heart!
Term it
..a wish,
desire,
aspiration,
castle in the sky,
a day dream!

Sounds perfect
at commencement,
but never is,
as it flows
away with time
to extent
where
it gets
way beyond
reach!

Imperfection,
in-consistence,
I feel
best describes life
and subsistence!

(c) Archana Bora

Query

Days mundane
fleeting by.
Time so cruel
drifting past!
Thinks of none
both hand in hand
pass me by..
as I wait
and
watch helplessly!

I try to read
between the lines
of destiny
in my palms..
and find
a way out
of this
indecisive
phase of life!

I look to God
for help
and try to
figure out
if the
wheel of fortune
truly exists!!

(c) Archana Bora

Intezaar

Hai.N hum duur sahi, par dil aapke karib hai..
Yeh ehsaas mere dil ko azeez hai!

Ek zamana tha jab yeh karibi be.asar thi,
aalam hai yeh ab, intezaar hai, aap kab qareeb ho.N.

Aapke ek nazar ko ab hum taraste hai.
Intezaar hai, kuhuda humpar phir kab mehrbaa.N hoga!

(c) Archana Bora

Zindagi mujhse yuu.N

Kyo.N zindagi mujhse yu milti hai bar bar?
Na de ek pal ka sukoo.N aur na dil ko qaraar!

Har baar ek hi mor par la kar chho.D de.
Dil ke zakhmo.N ko bas kuredti rahe!

Ek lamha khushi ko tarasti huu.N har soo.N.
Kyo.N zindagi tu hai aisi, main poochti hoo.N.

(c) Archana Bora

Waqt ki aandhi …

Waqt ki aandhi main sab bikhar gaya,
meri neend mera kuch baaki na rahaa.
Kho gaya sab us veerane main,
jise log sannata kehte hain.

Mere khwaab mere na rahe..
sab chhod gaye mujhe.
Is mor par jab aur
ab kuch dikhta nahii.N.

Dhoond rahi huu.N ek kinara
is aandhi se bahar.
hogaa kahii.n to,
yahaa.n nahii.n to kahii.n duur!

(c) Archana Bora

Craving…

Your thoughts linger
with faded memories
of the moment
I spent with you!

Time crawls
in expectations
and my
heart tremble.

In desperation,
I stare the sky above
and I capitulate
to my emotions
running wild inside!

Unconsciously,
naively
my tears run down!

Staring at the moonlit night
my nostalgic mind,
craves for a moment
with you again!

(c) Archana Bora

Ummeed!

Tum poochte ho kya chahiye..

Tum to ameer ho,
waqt ke khazane se
kuch pal tumhare pyaar ke,
thoda sa apnaapan
aur ek vaada zindagi bhar ke saath ka de do!

Tumhare pyaar ke shabnam ke intezaar mein
registaan si meri zindagi...
Kuch yaadein, kuch hassen sapne de do.

Tum kehte ho aaj
jo mangungi milegaa!
Le lo apni baahon mein,
ke dil ko sukoon mile.

Ummeed hai jab kaha hai tumne,
to phir,
aaj de doge mujhe jo mere dil ne chaha!

(c) Archana Bora

Tu kaun hai!

Tu kaun hai...

Mere dil se pooch,
har dhadkan mein naam hai tera.
In aankhon se pooch
jisme intezaar hai tera!

Pooch in raaton se jo,
jaagti hain mere saath!
in barsaat ki boondon se
jism se jo takraati hain !
Bayaan karengi vo lamhen
jinme intezaar hai tera!

Uss aaine se pooch,
jisse baantati huu.N tanhaai apni.
aur pooch uss chadar se
jise intezaar hai silwato.N ka!

Pooch unn khayalo.N se
jo uljhe rahte hain lamha lamha tujhse!
Pooch is zindagi se
jo tere bin, ek sifar si mehsoos hoti hai.

(c) Archana Bora

The Writer's Block

Wondering
what I write..
thoughts bare
and
my mind empty!

The sheet
of paper
lying
untouched!

I scribble..
but
words saunter
in and out
my empty mind.

I stare
helplessly!

(c) Archana Bora

Stranded.. (a friend's poem )

In midst of compulsion
in confusion,
stranded I am.

Bound to ties
Bound in frustration
stranded I am.

Breaking bonds
but building bridges
stranded I am.

Trying to break off
but bound by chains
stranded I am.

Alone to face
the ferocious waves..
Stranded I am.

(c) Archana Bora

Life.. A new perception

Moving at a snail's pace,
scores of people
bid me a farewell.

I depart
and reach
the “door”
where
the mortal meets immortal,
and
what lies beyond,
not a soul
could ever decipher!

The soul
unaccompanied today,
after leaving its mortal cover
wanders in the cosmos.

I comprehend “life”

A mortal body,
innumerable pains,
insignificant worries
and
an aimless struggle
till death with no escape!

Copyright (c) Archana Bora

Possessiveness

You treat me

like

a doll of clay..

Without

a concern

that

am a human

you deal with!

Mould me

everytime

in the form

you desire!

Thinking least

about the

mayhem you set

then in me!

Trying

in desperation

to find a way out!

Am trapped

in the maze..

of your heart!

Set me free

that’s what I plead!

Coz its love

not possessiveness

I need!

(c) Archana Bora

The eyes

Astounded
I stood
in front of her..
Unable to even
recollect
who am I!

Her captivating,
enigmatic,
deep hazel eyes..
peering through
the dark veil..
eyeing me!
I wished
deep
in my heart..
the time
comes to
a standstill!!

I craved
to lose myself
in the depth
of those
big beautiful eyes!

She left
a trail of thoughts
as she walked past!

(c) Archana Bora

My mind today!

I realize
its still in my mind!
Hurting me!

Each moment
a torment
still afresh
in my memory!

Though I try to forget
its all in vain..
My desires lie slain
to death
by destiny
with no signs to let it live again!

No hopes now persist
my destiny resists
and I wonder if
I ever see the sun again!

I move to a point
of no return
as I feel my life
is an
aimless, endless run!

(c) Archana Bora

Commiseration

Wishes
transformed
into
fears in life!

Distorted,
misinterpreted,
wasted
and
blown away...
to a land
of nothingness..
like the
serene,
silent
marooned deserts!

Life resembles
a satire
of destiny.

The castle
of my desires
after a
jungle fire
is wrecked
and
in ruins is
left behind!

Each dream
my child,
of nurture, of care...
dies premature,
leaving me nowhere!

I mourn !

(c) Archana Bora

Introspection

The urge

for your touch

still persists!

The desperation

I feel

exists still

and

I can't resist.

The magnetism

draws me closer..

Still feels so strong.

I try to realise

where and what

went wrong.

Do I blame you

or myself

for our fate

or something else.

No answers

I find

from my heart,

and I give up.

I revert

and tread back

into the lanes

of nostalgia.

With memories

of you

my companion still..

I think of you again..

My only love in life!

(c) Archana Bora

Silent conversations with a Stranger!

I see you
watching me,
admiring me,
everytime we meet!

I read
your eyes,
as they linger on
when I move,
and then stop,
with a smile
as our eyes meet!

Each glance
we share
has so much
to convey..
I hope we
confess
this someday!

Stranger,
my heart
skips beats
whenever
I see you..
The search
for perfection
ends at you!

(c) Archana Bora

Fire

Fire..
.. red..
burning wild..
and hot!

A bonfire..
..with stacked..
reasons to be..
alight!

So eager..
.. to just swallow..
anything..
cruel lust!

I burn..
In fire ..
of passion..
..so wild.

Nothing can..
pacify,
the urge within..!
and satisfy..
..the unrest..
in my soul..
after you played..
game so foul!

It still burns!

(c) Archana Bora

Emptiness…

Wondering what to do about…
The emptiness you left behind!
A void so large,
Nothing of its kind!
The emptiness so vast…
Extends as the oceans deep!
Waves of turbulence move on,
Like the water in a creek!

The turmoil so hard to hide…
The pain refuses to subside!

My mind rebounds back,
To the nostalgic lanes dark!
Wherein the bare facts of deception;
Stands naked stark!

The untrue emotions of yours;
Still hurt my soul inside!
Your lingering memories …
Makes it difficult to survive!

The emptiness in my heart,
Has become an inseparable part!

(c) Archana Bora

Love

Love is deep I realized

and its roots penetrate deep through!

Love stays I realized,

after I failed to ignore my heart so true.

Love is pain I understood,

as moment, without you, was turmoil to bear.

Love is life I realized,

as alone my heart refused to steer.

Love is ecstasy I realized,

when, in love, I cried in sheer bliss.

Love is caring I realized,

after we shared a passionate kiss.

Love is honesty I realized,

to you I could never lie.

Love is forever I knew,

as your essence stayed......

..though you bid me goodbye!

I love you forever!

(c) Archana Bora

Afterthought

The fresh morning
the flowers on
the crushed bed ..
and
I open the doors…

To my new life,
a translation
of my identification,
in the world!

I no more am
the little girl,
I used to be
a day back!

I feel matured
multiple years
overnight!


(c) Archana Bora